This is a blog of a growing girl named by FATHUL NABILA BT ABD KARIM..a little intro to this blog before you start reading this blog..I take a lot of pride in being myself. I am comfortable with who I am..I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhapiness is determined by our circumstances but by our deposition..so happy reading guys :)
Hello...assalamualaikum...meet me,, nabila..prefer u called me ila..hihi :) All I ever wanted really, and continue to want out of life, is to give 100% to whatever am doing and to be commited to whatever am fighting and then let the results speak for themselves. Also to never take myself or people for granted and always be thankful and grateful to people who helped me. While I know myself as a creation of God, I am also obligated to realize and remember that everyone else and everything else are also God's creaton..so guys,,be nice..n nice meeting you :) >3
Let these pixies tell u e/tink what hapeened in the camp...i just love them..next post also gonna be the pixies bout this course...there are 1053 of them in my cd.....tenz abg ikwan 4 givim me these pixies....these pixies are all from his camera!!
What a suprise...my sis,,gave a letter to me..she sais disz letter is from my cousin who stays in Selangor..tenz 4 givim me disz letter..i cried a lot..time heals e/tink...but not me i think..mayb i have 2 let ame goes from my life,,but i'll promise u long,,one day later kay..not now..i'll let him go,,but one day later...bcoz now,,i believe in myself,,he's gonna come back 2 me...lookim 4 me..i dun know whether it's true or not,,but i'll just keep on waiting...so,,diz letter,,i'll retype it here..2 show my appreciation..tenz 4 d suppost...iloveyousomuch,my dear cousin...
DEAR NABYLLA,
You know, the hardest part of breaking up is to move on. To let go of all your dreams and hopes, to not to think about your lost love before you fall asleep, to wake up from your sleep only to find that the person you love so dearly is no longer yours, to feel the emptiness, to look at the other couples and reminiscing the good old days when you were both happily in love.
But time heals. Time heals almost everything.
It is okay to let go. If your needs are not met, if there's no more mutual affection, if the feelings aren't mutual anymore, if there's no respect between the two of you, then the best thing to do is to let go. You have to let go, hard I know, but you just have to.
I used to believe that between the person I love and the person who loves me more, I'd prefer to be with the person who I love. Wrong, dear. I've learned that you just have to love yourself first before you could ever love anybody else. And the feelings just have to be mutual. You have to love the person who loves you back. And most importantly, who can respect you. Loving is nothing without respecting each other.
If you are not meant to be together, you will not be together. As simple as that. Because God knows best.
I hope you are strong enough to move forward. Stay open, cause who knows, lightning could strike :)
To those who miss someone so terribly especially to my cousin,,nabylla,
The silence isn't so bad, til you look at your hands and feel sad, cause the spaces between your fingers are right where his fingers fit perfectly" :)
Ironic. That's the best word to describe how your life is.
It is not ridiculous, it is just ironic. Life is anything but neat. It is not always smooth.
You know, every time when I work hard for something, be it preparation for exams or be it in a relationship, it won't turn out good. Whenever I care less about something, it will surprise me. As I grew older, I tend to take things more seriously. I get disappointed more often now than ever. Because when you put so much effort into something and later, failed miserably, it sure hurt, damn bad.
Usually, when I’m so deeply, crazily in love with someone, he just couldn’t love me as much. It’s suicidal. There would always be the saviours, those who seem to care and love me dearly, but I just couldn’t love them back. It is just so messy. Lesson learned, do not fall so deeply in love, you’ll get drowned. Love those who love you back, who care about you, who respect you and who never fail to make you happy, and most importantly, love yourself first before you could ever love anybody else.
And usually, I get my heartbroken during final exams, important tests, practicum observations, big presentations, the last day of my assignments’ deadline and happy hours. Thanks so effin’ much for the memories : )
From the trivial things in life to the significant ones, life wouldn’t be challenging if it’s not ironic. If it’s not challenging, it will be dull. If it’s dull and neat, it will be no fun. You've gotta go through the pain to experience the joy. Remember, there will be a rainbow after the rain. Look on the bright side. Shit happens, but it will pass. C’est la vie.
Life is indeed, ironic. Like, it doesn’t rain every time you bring your umbrella with you, but when you don’t, it rains. Like, you just couldn’t fall asleep the whole night thinking about the big day tomorrow, and a couple of hours before the big thing, you fell asleep and wished that you could just sleep. Like, when you were about to tell someone that you love her/him, she/he started to confess that she/he is in love with your best friend. Like a funeral of a close relative during your wedding day. Like a break-up on your birthday :)
Life could be devastating. It could disappoint you. But you’ll learn from it. You just have to go through it, and smile. No matter how bad thing seems to be, it will pass. For tomorrow, the sun will shine again. Even though the path that you take might be rocky and bumpy, just enjoy the ride. One day, you’ll look back at your life and you'll laugh at it :)
Because life is just ironic.
It's a traffic jam when you're already late
It's a no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic... don't you think?
Okay...today woke up early at 6.30 in d mrnim...laz nyte was cold..i had a gud sleep laz nyte...took my shower..wore my baju krung..had my break fast..keh3...then papa sent me to d yuition...very cold in the car wid the air cond u c...hak3...
reached there,,entered the class....waited 4 wiena n qeela to come..texted azmi 4 a while..kah3...he's so bowink ek...kui3...then afta d classes,,went home...helped mama to cook fish curry,,,,n bla2....then mama went 4 her tuition class,,now i'm on-9 ing....haven,ryte... thats 4 today....afta disz gonna go 4 my arabic tuition..now goim 2 take a nap 4 a while...waaaa,,,so sleepy...bye2....
Askom..huhu....da lame xblogging nie...wondu2 blog sgat...amacam???blog akoo nie shat x??bloggies sume shat x?? hek3... skang dapat on9 sbb mama pegi mgajar her xtra claz..lau x,,memg xbrpluang..mandy pown blom agy nie..kejar on9 dulu..hak3... ok2...lately..mcm2 brlaku...hak3...my aunt from america came here....kota bharu,,kelantan..hehe...love them so much..ila da xjmpa diaowg snce i was in standard 6..n now i met them when i'm in form 4....long2 tyme u c...hek3...my aunt mak cik ah leng never changed...she's still like dat...kurus n sgat cntik..4 me la...her husband,,uncle areland,,he's a nice guy..i didn't talk a lot wid him....their children a.k.a my cousins are mei li,,ammie n danial..they are funny...talked to them..i cannot believe i talked to them in eng..speaking wooo..hak3....ok lol..they were very nice...i love them n they have gone to our hometown in N9,,,n i gonna misz them..hak3.....
then,,last friday,,3 of my frenz including me went to kursus asas klinikal (k.a.k)di sekolah kdai buloh..the camp was great n havoc..hak3...we went there on friday mornim...arrived at smk kdai buloh at 9.00 pm...ckgu syed ali went to register our name..aha,,frgot 2 mention,,the three monsters were mc na,,bay n mc ya..hak3..(back 2 d story)... then we we given a short brief from a doctor frm hospital pkar prdana..i dun know wat he said bcoz i didn't listen 2 him..hak3...we got 1 penghulu n a penghuluwati...penghulu was irfan n penghuluwati was kak fiza..yeay2...kak fiza is just the best...naaa,,misz her lol..hak3...around 12 sumtim,,they alllow us to go 2 the dorm...we booked our place..under the fan...yeah2!! i like...went to have our lunch...the boys went to the mosque to prform the friday's prayer lol...the gurlz were resting..hak3...like it lol...hak3...bla3,,2.45,,we went to the hall...another brief from the facilitators...just listen to it..take notes n done...easy ryte...hek3...5.30 in d evenim..went for riadah...zapin n chicken dance...i love it like hell..hak3...we enjoyed the prog...from the zapin,,now i know how 2 overcome my tension..just dance it...hak3..gonna blutuh the zapin song from bay nty...yea2....nyte plak,,xder aktiviti ape2..just we had a practical how to do the anduh,,how to use the stretcher...best sgat...cik din was funny..akoo n mc na gelak sakan...abis gelak smpai nk pcah perut..hak3...then we allowed to slip at 12.00 o'clock..they said we have to wake up at 5.30 in the mrnim...WHAT?? at 1.43 in the mrnim,,they woke us up...we had a simulation...pc's simulation..pc stands 4 pertolongan cemas..cik din said,,,'ok,,saya bru dapt laporan ada dua blok di kwasan kta nie kruntuhan bgunan n bekaln elektrik putus..we have to safe all the vctims...ader yg path kpala...path kaki..n tah ape2 lol..hek4..me,,mc na,,bay, mc ya,,halim n a few boys from other school as corresponder..we have to move frst..went into the buildings,,tgok kcdraan ape yg dialami n msti blik ke dwan 2 untk gtaw what we need...stretcher kew..cotton wool kew,scop kew,,ape2 jelah....run2...suasana kelam kabut glew..but the synopsis was,,sumer mgsa selmat dibwak semula ke dewan dgan jaynya...dgan bntuan kami,,BELIA2 PBSM...bgga doe..hak3....yg xbest nya,,ader 3 owg plajar kna culik...a boy n 2 gurls..bukn kna culik pown..its just mase simulasi 2 owg tgah kalut,,dia buat derk dia jew...faci pown ape agy..trik tgan bwak g sorok ar..akoo lngsung xnrvous...taw da 2 sumer angkara fasi trcayarm la 2..hak3...suke suki kami di sana....kelam kabutnya kami di sana brsama bnyi ambulans,,smpai pnduduk kampung dtg skola 2 brtnyakn ape yg trjadi..lucu kn...prihatinnya msyrkat kdai buluh kn...GRACIAS pndudk kg kdai buluh..hek4....
the next day,,we had a short presentation...my group leader,,tah name ape tah,,dgan beraninya keluar ke depn untk present bnd2 sains walaupon dia bdak akaun i think..hak3....a gold medal 4 him...love him as a frenz n as a good group leader to my group..hak3...bla3...pmbhgian sjil n e/tink,,tiba masa kitaowg blik..besk k.a.k nie...rase lau dia suwo dudk cni 3 ari pown ila sggup rasenya..hak3...love the camp bery2 much..kui3....
smpai blik umah sumer,,did the laundry,,tdow..pnat kn..malm g balai seni tgok owg menari zapin n inang dgan uncle areland,,mak cil aling,,mei li,ammie n danny boy...had a great tyme wid them...then went 2 eat satay...the americans love the satay n roti canai very much..yeah3....i love them juz the way they love me...we're 1 big happy family..kah3....
tommorow mrnim,on sunday i mean,,all my family sumer xg skola...mama n papa xg kejew..amik cuti..my sblings sumer cuti sndrik...why?? bcoz kitaowg nk spent tyme ngn my aunt's family...diaowg da nk blik ptg nty...we went to pgkaln kbor..also had a great tyme there..hak3....mak cik aling said..'kak cik,,u have 2 choose sumtim..i want to buy u sumtim..i've got one for ur lil bro n sis..now its ur turn...' i was blurr..i didn't want to but anytim...since she was like eager to get me sumtim,,so i choose a white inner n a short..hak3...mak cik aling sgat baek...aha,,b4 i frgot disz,,,i got RM 470...from where did he money come??mak cik aling gave me 200..my mak long who stays in australia also gave me 250..my apo gave me 20...yeay2....nie lagi tmbah syg kat diaog nie...mak cik aling n mak long gave me bcoz last year 1 got 9a's ryte??apo gave me 20 for my pcket money...hek3...(cont.d story) have lunch wid them afta came back from pgkln kbor...i ate mihun tom yam....OMG!! ammie ate 5 pieces of roti canai..(btol kew pggunaan pieces 2??tara hal..lntak pi ahh!!)c.....how she loves the roti canai..hak3....
went home....they took their shower..around 4.15,,they started their journey 2 tampin,,N9....mak cik aling cried a lot when she hugged my momma....yelew...bila dia blik america nt,,kitaowg akn jmpa dia blik lpas 5.6 twon akn dtg..thats why she cried..mama also cried...i also cried..but ila ngis sket jew..mama n mak cik aling la ngis byak..hek4....thats ok..let them cry..they are sblings kn....i love my sblings 2..kah3....
then,,thats the end the journey of my life....the pitchas gonna up load later kay....next post lau ila ader masa..keh4....
P/S: tadi dapt info,,pljar yg dapt 9a twon lpas,,ader mjlis nty akn diadakn..they gonna gave us some maney..thats haven
Salam sumer bloggies...tenz erk kpada my followers yg setia...erm..lama da ila xupdate blog nie...u know why??streamyx rosk lew....lama ia nya rosk...smpai ila trpksa bnti facebook,,blogging n sumer la....alahai....plus lak bz ngn kejew2 skola....skul activities yg sgat melambak....smpai tulang 4 kerat nie rasenya da reput...studies tah ke mana.....asyik ngn skul activties yg tah ape2....
hurm...since ila xblogging nie,,,a lot yg happened to me...nk ctew pown xleh sbb ila xingat ape yg jdik....tp memg byak ar yg jdik....
ape erk??tgak cuba mengigat nie...alahai otak..brfungsi cpat...hek4....ok2,,,,ai 2 ila TERbuat drama di dinamis 2...ye ar...ai kamis malm 2 ila da dmam....pg 2 plak ila kna g tsyen....suhu bdan mase to 40 celcius okay...dats what we called it fever....tp papa suwo g jgak..pg 2 ila naik tgga lam keadaan nk muntah,,smpai jew klas 2,,ila trus trdudk n trus tdow ats meja....xpeduli sapa yg pndang..hek3...tdow around 10 minutes,,bnyi bsing,,,plajar2 len da mula menyerbu masuk..ila tggu qeela dtg sbb dia yg slalu dudk tepi ila....around 8.25 g2,,qeela dtg..ila nmpk jew dia,,ila trus ngis...hbis that boy named ZIZAN tgok ila ngis..malu siot..hak3...tp nk wat cm nee...mase 2 tgah sakit kpala..n papa lak pksa suwo g tsyen...aty membrontak,,sbb 2 ila ngis....
lagi,,,ader satu ary 2 kn,,ila blik skola jaln kaki....aduhai...byangkn,,ila start jaln kul 3.45 n i reached home at 4.45...1 hour ila jaln blik umah dri skola....taw nape ila blik jaln kaki??sbb xder owg yg nk dtg amik ila..ila like stupd dog tggu,,xder owg dtg,,ila blik..lagi ngis...hek4....
pas2 lagi yg jdi cm nie taw,,ingt x ila ader post dulu kn gtaw ader sowg boy nie kat klas ila tsyen di dinamis 2,,muka cm ame...tetbew lak ader 1 ari 2 ila perasn lam kels 2 rupa2 nya ame klon 2 ader kwan pompuan jgak lam klas 2...that gurl is veri irritating and annoying...bukn sbb ila jeles k..tp sbb ader kew ptoot mula2 tu dia pkai cardigan taw msuk kels 2...then bila plajar laki msuk,,dia buang crdigan 2..trnmpak la body dia yg agk gempal 2...then plajar laki malu ngn tndakn dia,,those boys kwa blik dri kels....u know wht she did??dia kwa dri claz 2,,,then stood up in front of the boys,,pkai crdigan 2 depn bdak2 laki 2....Ya Allah...shit sgguh betina 2..hahahhahahahaaaaa....then yg buat ila pnas ai 2 sbb nya mse bio,,ila tgok ame n his frens kwa dri clas..ila dgar la diaowg ckap nk g mkan kfc....ila wat bdow la...alangkah trbkrnya aty bila mase bi,,diaowg msuk blik kels 2,,ila tgok kt tgan pmpuan 2 ader plastik kfc....huh!! from dat day,,ilang rase crush kat si ame KLON nie..hek3....blik umah ai 2 dgan rase sebal nya la kn...ape on the way blik 2,,jumpa lak keta ame...2 kali...ame plak 2 yg drive..(dia makin encem kowt) ape agy,,meleleh ar air mata yang murh nie....tp that was a few weeks ago ar..now enth nape gettim bettr bout my feelim toward insan yg brnama SHAZMEER nie..hek4....
result exam pkbs 2 agak naik..walaupown add math agk jath mrkahnya..tp xpew ar..da agk brusha kowt...cuma blom ckup...blaja ok jew...jusz yg xelok nya,,i'm getting lazier..hak3....Tuhan,,bntulah hmbaMu yg mals nie...hek4....
n soooooo on la...xtaw nk ctew ape....n lbey jgak kpd mlas ar kn..sbb mata da kuyu...ye ar,,td ngis sbb papa xbg g kem pbsm ai jmaat nie....wateva it is,,nk ckap blik ngn papa mlm nie..n i'll make sure he'll sign that form kay...hurgh!!
p/s:wiena my desk mate nk buat blog jgak...sbb dia nk ctew probs dia lam blog...
well,,thats some stories bout me sepnjng xup date blog nie...
really misz ina n pia sooo much.....
n sdar xsdar,,,da 1 year,,10 months n 2 weeks ila tggu ame...xsgka btol ila setia glew cm nie...kah3....
