SAYA PERLUKAN AWAK!!

Ame..nape xnak pham..

by perlukan ame.,..

by sgat2 prlukan ame...

nape masih xpham...

nape??

napew??

napew??

by xska ble ame xpham..

nape ame msh xkmbali pd by..

cpat la..

bntuk jiwa aty by meronta untuk by bersua dgan ame..

knap ame xpham??

nape mash xmemahami?

tlg by ame..

tlg by..

by prlukan ame...

i nid u..

ame kate nk jga by..

skang mane ame mghilang?

cpatla blik..

by masih setia dgan ame...

ame...seluruh aty by untuk ame...

i'm yours..

totally..

mutlk whai sygku..

aduhai..

knapa xnk mgerti whai syg??

hurm..(sigh)

ame..

by tggu ame taw..

cpat sket sblum by mgalh dgan masa yang semkin ari semakn membratkn by..

DEAR LOVE..

MY HEART N SOUL ARE YOURS EVER N EVER..

p/s: for u syg,,

by sgat cintakn syg!!

27012010

Notink to say my dear lovely blog...

i misz blogging...

but i dun have any idea on wat to write...

yet also,,now i dun have any idea...

the thing is i'm too tired wid my daily activities..

kul 2.45 scool off..

4.00 - 6.00 badminton practise..

the tournament is on apr..

nyte humwork yang sgat belmbak mcm katak mati kekeyangan kn..

hell btol lorh...

but i still face it..

thank god 4 giving me this strenth!!

n yet...i stil love ame...

n keep going 2 misz him...

adui la...

blew nk brakhir rndu nie...

i love my life!1

HE & HIM !!

Waaarrgh !! i met him last nyte.. yea2.. i'm in his car.. OMG!! dia da byak berubah..makin hensem lorh..cara dia bwak keta pown cool mcm zamn2 ila n dia date ats keta lu..hek3,,,n dia asyik curi2 pndang ila melalui crmin lam keta tu..eh3... MALU la...kui3...

things happened when smlam ila g skola join kwan2 prep malm stady..ila nk g buat umwork add mth...kul 10.30,,ila blik..then ader satu keta myvi oren nie lalu...ila rase cm nmpak papa ila lam keta 2..tp xmgkin la sbb my family xder yang guna myvi pown...then tetbew papa kwa dr keta myvi oren tu,, g amik ila depn pntu pgar skola..naik ats keta,,papa dudk sit depn dgan DIA..ila dudk dgan mama DIA kat seat belakng..ila perasn DIA selalu curi pndang kat ila...then..tetbew dalm DIA duk curi pndang 2..ila dapt tgkap mata dia...n dup dap...dup dap...i know the eyes...its DIA...i'm sure..its DIA..hek3...i'm happy ila ditemukn blik dgan DIA..hek3...

but tetbew datg lam pkran...mcm new dia bley knal papa?apew kaitn mak dia dgan papa....lots to think kn3,,,,dkat2 nk sampai umah ila 2...papa kate kat DIA..bnti cni sdah ar..nty ank saya jaln masuk..then dia kate...xpew ar...nty sakit kaki dia nk jaln...mase 2 ila hepi sgat..hepi sesngat...coz i misz him!! a lot ok!! hek3..tp at d same tyme,,ila rase nk baling jew fail add math kat tgan ila 2 biar kena kepala DIA sbb sepnjang prjlnan dri skola nk smpai umah 2,,dia kata kat papa ila 'anak ckgu nie comey la',,,'ank ckgu skola naim msti pndai key',,,,'ank ckgu bley bpew a ai 2 pmr?'''my father said,,'9a'...then he answered,,'pndai ank ckgu'
he called my father ckgu coz my father is a teacher..hak3...ila geram sgat sbb sumer soaln dia tnya 2 semua dia da taw actually..hek3...but ila geram lam hepi..hek3...

smpai umah 2..rase cm xnk trun keta jew..tp ape nk buat kn....really hope nk jumpa dia lg...hek3....


P/S: HE'S NOT AME,,HE'S SUM1 ELSE!!
       GUESS WHO??

PHOTO PHOTO PHOTO

Add some pixca today..

family n frens..

hek4..

i love them!!

ITS ME,I & MINE!!

it was tagged by :

~ sofea khairuddin ~

trimas dear

1) get pictures of the five things that you desired most

1) my pink cute mp3

2) digital camera

3) my gucci handbag

4) my n70

5) my laptop

2) why do you want no 1 & 2?

oooo..of course i need all those stuffs..i need songs n melodies in my life..

my mp3 is fuul of my favourite songs..if i get insane stressed,,surely i need my mp3 to comfort me..no 2 is sooo important..where ever i go,,my camera is wid me,,easy for me to snap pixca..coz i loves snapping very much!! absolutely wid my frens n my ex..,ha..

3) what's so important about no.3 & no.4 ?

is this question is ok?dun ask me this naughty questions ok..hahahahhaa..my handbag is my secrets..haahhaa..every things is in there..my tissue.my wallet,,my every single things ok..kui3..gucci handbag must 24/7 beside me,,even i'm going 2 bed also its stil wid me..OMG!! what?? u bet!! my n70 is my life..nyawa saya ok..i lost my n70,,i'll surely die..again 24/7 stay close to me..hehheheee..why i'll die?bcoz all my sweets n pain memories wid ame are all there..got it??

4) what is so attractive about no 5?

my dear laptop..hurmmm..actuaaly its not mine..its my mum's..huhuhu..wats so attractive haaa?? i dun even know..but i like the design ok..n definitely,,without any doubt,,how can i on9 widout this importnt gadget hah?i need it soooo much in my daily life even when i want to use it,,i have to ask my mum's permission first ok..hahahhaaaa...

5) who would you want to see answer this tag ?

everyone..but the most important is my follower!! & d one who's tagged me!!

DISZ IS ME WHO IS NOT STRONG2 ENUF!!

telah ku cube meminta kasihmu

biar menjadi ikatan abadi

namun apa daya terlerai jnji kita

mgkin tkdir yang meminta...

namun apa daya

trlerai jnj kita mgkin tkdir yang meminta..

bermusin kita brsama

menyemai ikatan cinta

xmgkin kasih ku hilang

trkunci hati untkmu

hubungkn kenangan indah

simpanlah senda gurauan

andainya kau kerinduan

itulah jd penawar

sungguh ku trharu dan pilu

kasih ku semai kau abaikan

putsny ikatan cnta

mgkin tiada jdoh kita

menangis hati ini

ku juga brsimpati

hncurnya hrapn ku

maaf kn syg

hatimu yg brubh

ak pun tak menyangka

itulah alasanmu

prgilah syg

AM I ASKING TOO MUCH??

Ok...balik tsyen dinamis td pkul 11.30..

12 angah dtg amik..

lalu dpan umah ame...

ok,,fine...

i did saw u..

ame bru nk kwa umah..

fine..

i misz u like hell.

cannot stop my self from crying..

ila trlalu lemah..

i admit that!!

i'm not enuf strong!!

ame,,ila rndu ame..YES!! I DID!!

I DID!!

i'm trying my very2 best to fget u..

n i'm forcing myself 2 frget u..

why can't u get me dear??

i'm sick of this silly pain..

it hurts me damn2 hell!!

sayang!! the saddest part isn't that with each passing days i feel like i need u more,,

but it's the fact that you don't need me at all!!

sayang,,i just want YOU..

i need YOU..

and i do really love YOU soo much n

i want YOU here wih me!!

AM I ASKING TOO MUCH????????

RINDU RINDU!!

Huh...ai nie da 20 ari bulan kn..hek3...mase 18th january 2010 isnin lpas anniversary ila mula2 knal trkh ame...trkh trsebut yang membawa cerita dan titik2 idop ila dgan ame smpai ari nie..hek3...

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY,,DARLING!!

MAY GOD BLESS U..

I LOVE YOU!!

things went on cm biase...i'm just tired being a form 4 student..but at d same tyme i like it soooo much..apew nk jd nie..keh3....alahai lorh!! hurm....today 20th already...ari nie ader sbject sivik..mula2 taw ustaz abdullah yang akn ajar kitaowg...i feel like its annoying..bcoz of wat?sbb dia bley bcew owg..dia bley taw kita ckup semyng ke x..kita mengndung ke x..kita masih ader dara ke x..or ape2 jelew...ila xska dia bukn sbb ila xckup semayng..tp ila tkot dia taw tahu ila nie xbrjurus sket..degil..kepala batu...n plg pnting dia taw ila ader cintakn sesowang,,AME!!..

hurm...so blew dia msuk ila brdbar glew2 kn..tp muka poyo nk mampus..wat ilex jew kn..kui3...

then dia tnya sape dapt 9a n sape dapt 8a...ok lorh kn...then dia tnya untk 2011 nie..bpew awk trget..clas ila ader 2 kategori...half jwap trget 11 n half jwap trget 10..ila trgolong lam org yang trget 10..then dia kate owg yang trget 10 nie ader prob..ok sy sbgai guru clas awk sumer nk mulai ari nie..awk kena bwak air 1 btol..insyaAllah stiap ari sblum mula clas sy akn mask clas bcew 1 doa yang khusus...doa 2 untuk buang sumer bnda kotor lam kpala awk...ingat..wajib bwak sape yang trget 10 tu..sape xbwak akn didenda puasa kifarah...lau mase 2 awk xleh semayang..awk kena bg mknan kat org miskin 1 cupak..i was like GULP!! GULP!! ok..nie akujanji awk pd sy..sy pegang jnj awk k...hurm..pas2 diaowg blnja kitaowg satu buku latihan yang 120 pages tu...bku nie kgunaan dia ialh setiap mlam..awk kna bcew dulu sbject yang akn dipelajari esk..ape awk bcew tu catat lam 2...saya akan check prkembangan buku tu...blew buku tu da habis awk guna,,,bru awk byar kat saya....ila mcm trharu dapt guru cm 2...i love ustaz abdullah!! hek3...cikgu,,bimbing saya ke jaln yang benar k...hek3...tu jelew untuk ai nie...

k lorh...nk dinner lak..kijew skola belambak doe...k...daaaaaaaaaa...i love my blog...

DIRI SAYA DI MANA??

today blik skola kul 5..angah amik at 5.10..

ten minutes i'm waiting..

its sokay..

its not that late hah...

lalu dpan umah ame...

tgok krta dia ader dkat garaj 2..

rase lega..at least ila taw dia ader d rumah n xg jumpa pmpuan lain..

ila lau lalu dpan umah dia xleh tgok keta dia xder kat porch 2...

keta 2 mesti harus wajib ader..

lau x ila rase rnsing n slalu cdey tgok keta dia xder...

hek4...

P/S:iLoVeHiM!!

Bukan ku mengungkit kisah lame...

sekadar mengulit kenangan..

kasih dan sayang yang kita semai...

KETANDUSAN!!

I'M TRYING MY BEST!!

OK...wake up at 6.30..again!! mandi...ciap2 g tsyen dinamis...sbjects ai nie were add math,,mode math n chemy..sgat lega la jgak kn..add math td i think i can follow evev trtggal d blkang..xpew2..sbar2 yer ila..ingat..owg xpndai pown bley dapt 12a 1 lau rajin..pndai tp mlas xusha..there's no way u can achieve straight a..take notes of datz.... mode math sgat2 ok.. i love the teacher..dia taught us bkan mcm ckgu add math...ckgu add math 2 mcm nk kjar keta api g sngapura...eh ader kew keta api g sngpura?WATEVA!! chemy sbb last week ila xdftar lagi,,bru dftar disz week....so agk lmbat la sket tngkap..i ask my frens wina...'eh wina,,mg pahm?' then wina answred me 'x...ak xpham...' sooo ila lega la..bukan kate ila sowg xdapt tngkap...wat a great lucky..wina 2 desk mate ila...so we planned nk blaja chemy yang ckgu ajar kt  tsyen nie 2morow...ha3...i hope i can ketch up all d sbjects..ckgu chemy ader ckap..nk g over sea...kna rajin..sy bkan nk promote ank sy....tp awk taw..sy kwa malm g lepaking wid my frens blik kul 3 pg..tgok dia dk bcew...esk sy bgun kul 6 tu sy tgok dia dk blaja lg...trial ai 2 dia dapt 8a..sy rase spm nie dia dapt 10 a...sy bgga dgan dia....jd awk sbgai ank,,jalnkan tggung awap awk,,blaja rajin2...chemy sgat mudh..blaja rajin bg a+ utk chemy...

at 11.30,,blik dr tsyen..nie blogging jp...jp agy n g buat kijew skola...ptg nty nk g tsyen arb plak...hu4,,,leth kn..tp xpew...ila nk tuntut ilmu kt dunia nie..nty bley bwak g akhrat..kui3..insyaAllah!! malm bley revised sheets yang ckgu ng d tsyen td..mtak2 la trcpai...wahai mata ku yang sgat ku sayang,,jgn la buat perngai nk tdow...malm nie bg chance tok ila stady k..ingat ye whai mata jnj kita..dun break our promise!! actually ila brjnji dga dri ila sndri nie..hek3....i love myself even i'm not prfect bcoz i believe..nobody perfect kn...

2 ame...by mish u damn2 really2 much!! td nmpak keta ame..hek3..nmpak keta je lor..tuan nya lama da xnmpk..blew bley nmpak ye??alahai..xpew2... sbar jew..lame2 adr rzki ila tgok ame k..angan2 je la ni kot...skang focus nk tngkap add math,bio,physic n chemy dulu..then bru by  buru ame k...by pgang jnj by taw syg....jga dri whai sinarku...

SALAM SAYANG,,
     nabylla

HAPPY!!

Things went smooth today...disz mrnim perg dinamis...sgat hepy..ckgu bio sgat power..ila pham dia ajr ape..n i like that!! then my english teacher plak sgat nice..i can feel dat she is an excellent teacher..hu4...LOVE it sooooo much!! hu4....

BUT,,,,kijew skola sgat melambak...xbuat satu pown lagi..wa,,,mlas doe..xpew2..mlam nty ila buat k,,my dear humwork!1 hek4...

k lorh..xder bnd nk ckap..notink to say!! k lorh,,

iLOVEhimSOOOOOOOmuch!!!
           DaMn2 MuCh!!!!

MESS!!

Xder la mess up sgat idop ila ai nie...sbb sbjct add math xder lam time table ai nie..hek3..n kijew physic lak da ciap kat skola..xpayh ila penim2 kpala nk buat sensoram kat umah..d skola td buat dgan kwan..xpham tnya..kn snang 2..heehhehehehehe...

idop ila ai nie lancar..trsgat lncar..cuma nya td tetbew sgat serabut..blew tetbew tringat esk da start tsyen 6 sbject d pusat tusyen dinamis...aigh!! (sigh!!) nape?sbb ila nie jnis yang xleh g tmpat bru sowg2...kna ader tman..hurm,,teman memg da ader..wina..my daddy esk anta ila d umah wina..kitaowg akn g skali ayah wina akn drive esok..mslhnya...entah nape hati rase xsdap..waaaaaaaaaaaa...plisz...xmo jd cm nie...God!! dont do disz 2 me....lau der ame kn senang..bley luah bnda nie kat ame...HEY!!! ila2..dia da xder lorh..he left u...kui3..lupa la ame da tggal ila...xlupa cm ner lau ila idop lam byangan dia...every second kn..

Dear God!! plisz...tolong jadikan esok my life is better than tday..xnk lg mess up cm slalu...tolng la..beri ila ketenangan yang maha hebat k...

p/s: I LOVE HIM!!

LEAVE YOU??

Askom sayang...by rindu sayang..by nk jumpa sayang...by nk dgar suara sayang...by nk tgok muka sayang..sayang..blew nk blik sini??by tkot by penat tggu sayang..by tkot by puts asa tggu sayang..by tkot by mengalah dengan masa...sayang sndri taw kn pnantian itu satu pyiksaan...xkan sayang xtahu??xkan sayang xpham??sayang..tell me!! ape ptot by buat?by cuma mtak sayang kembali pd by...adakh prmintaan by melampau??sayang plis...jgan gntung by xbertali mcm nie...jgan tggal by tnpa kata begini...by sepi syang taw..sepi....xkan sayng xpham pwasaan by?mcm mane harus by terangkan lagi pada sayang...

sayang..cpatla pulang...by menanti....by dapt 9a ai 2...prasaan nk smbut kjayaan by dgan sayang mash lg ader..jgan smpai rase ini pudar sygku,ame...by mash tggu sayang..masih ader hrapan lam dri by nk rase ape itu GEMBIRA smbut kjayaan kita dgan kekasih...ape itu BAHGIA dapat adiah blew kekash bg adiah ats kjyaan kita? by nk rase dunia nie by pnya ats nama cinta kita..by taw by mgkin bru brumur 16 twon untk bcakap sal cinta..tp believe me,ame..by taw ape itu maknanya CINTA...Ame...by masih tggu me taw..

k ar..mama da bebel by gna intrnet...sayang take care taw..i olwais love you..

SALAM SAYANG:
        baby

I MET HIS CAR!!

ila jumpa keta dia pg td nk g skola...i misz him badly

I WANT MY HOLIDAYS!!

ok2...disz mornim wake up at 6 am in da mrnim..take my bath..air sgat sjok..mata amt mengantuk la kn..mane tak nya..last nyte slept at after 12 kn..did my humwork..2 pown xciap ag..hu3....


went to skul at 6.50..arrived at 7...nk smpai skola 2 ila tdow dulu...papa bebl..hek3...but he did not know wat tyme i slept last nyte..masa nk trun salm papa dulu..ank solhah la kn..kah3.. :)  ask papa rm 20...coz nk g billion dgan kwan2 beli stationery...tmbah nk g mkan kat fud court kat ats 2..hek4...


lesson started at 7.40 sharp!! for chemy ok la..pham ja even ader sket2 trsekat..pastu sejarh..i love it..really love history sbject...ckgu plak yang ajr sbjct 2 cute..jubah yang dia pkai sgat lawa..2 slalu mint sej 2..kah3...then tbew la mse ADD MATH!! damn!! i cant follow even one...i think its not my fault...sbb ape?sbb sy da beri prhatian yang amt sgat kat ckgu..lnsg xbckap pown wktu add math td..tp stil xpham..nk taw nape?sbb ckgu go too fast..plajr2 pham..ok....blom smpat jwap pham ke x..trus white board kt dpan 2 ckgu da erase jaln kira..lasng xley follow...lau ckap xpham pown tara guna..ckgu terangkn blik pown scra fast ak..ila nie da ar lmbap math..alahai... :(


then rehat..pastu blaja arb..pastu blaja mate moden..pastu syariah..syariah sgat best.tp adakala sleepy..so i drank a lot of plain water so o2 byak jd xngntuk.dsbbkan add math td penghancur harapn sbb xdapt catch skgu ajar ape..ila xjadi g billion..buat list..kirm kat kwan suwo dia tolom beli..i stay at skola...cover add math td dgan rakn2 lain...sdey cley xikot..but at least add math td da dapt cover even mash ader yang xpham.. OMG!! i mish SIR Z!! he's my math teacher when i was in form 3..dia ajr sgat best..dia akn ajar ila smpai ila pham...he'll never leave me behind!! i love u sir..u r my best coach.. n dgan sir z ila xmalu nk brtnya..huhuhuhuhhhhuuu... REALITY OK!!


lpas cover math td smapi 4.30...abg dtg amik...leth bdan lorh..tp leth otak buat add matd td lagi leth..kui3...xpela...for my own gud kn..blaja rajin2 ye ila..hek3....smpai umh..pnaskn kuey tiau tomyam..mkan...sgat enak..kah3...prut rase sgat lega..recess td xmkan sbb xdapt follow add math.. alahai..ila2...


humwork sgat berlambak..lau g letk kat pasr malm 2 pnuh 3,4 longgok..hek4...ckgu nie btol lorh xkcian ngn ila...ckgu taw x apa itu penat?hek4..msti ckgu taw kn..huk3...sbb humwork trlalu byak..ila buat da sket td..so mlam nie xder la lwat sgat tdow kn..then mse ader nie ila blogging,,,,saje nk ctew betapa sushnya add math..kah3...


k...esk ader lg add math..alamtnya blik kul 4.30 lagi la...mtak2 la ckgu xmsuk eok..ya allah...jhatnya niat lam aty..kah3...


ok ar...bye3...
salam.....

SAY ME!!

p/s: I LOVE YOU!!

100110 - JAM 2008

ADDICTED!!

STORY2 ON 100110

Ari nie tarikh cntik kn..ila brkenan lorh 10/01/10!! all my pwemz adore tarikh nie..tah ape yang special pown tah..but seyesly i think trkh nie cun!!hak3...mayb sbb angka 1 tu kot..mcm my pwemx sowg 2...i know larh..nie anniversary dia n pak we dia..have been 2 years diaowg bsama!!

dear nadia,,moga ko bhgia dgan balak ko!!

happy aniversary darl!!

ape ader pd tarikh 10/01/2010?tah...my dear follower yang bcew  nie...kowang ader ape2 dgan tarkh nie?hek3...apew nk ctew ai ie yew?frankly speakng..nothing 2 say..jeles nie owg len ader post nk ctew..ila x..hek3..ish ila nie..jeles plak da..kah3...

ok2 dear!!ape nk bebel nie..cm nie lorh!! ila bcew write sumtink yang valuable k..

berapakah sebenarya harga remaja yang bersih

dari gelodak kecewa bagai kehijauan daun

bagai kesegaran pohon di pinggir perjalanan ini??

dengan apakah akan kaupenui

piala remajamu

adakah cuka kesangsian

dari cinta murah atau madu dari ajaran sush

remaja amat mahal..sesungguhnya tiada terbeli oleh perjanjian

harga remaja adalah pendirian,keberanian dan ilmu!!

penuhilah remajamu dengan ketentuan tuju!!

kn da kwa angin sastera 2?but i'm in scn stream lorh!! hak3...bowink la duk umah..nk g shopping kat kb mol..baket lak xder..sbb papa potng bajet bulan nie...padan muka ila!! sape suwo degil..hek3..xpew..kna potng rm 20 jew..kah3..lau pk2..byak ugak 2.hek4...

k lorh!! memandangkn da xder ape nk gtaw..i shud stop here...perah pnya perah pown xkwa idear nk write ape kt cni...later la k..bye2 blog..i love you sbb kamoo tmpat luah pwasaan!!

hek4...

SALAM RINDU,,

nabylla

ASKING MYSELF??

sering tertanya tanya..

apakah diri ini layak DICINTAI??

apakah diri ini layak memiliki segugus CINTA??

siapa ada jawapannya??

SAYA BERTANYA

KERANA

HATI INI TIADA JAWAPANNYA!!

SILAPNYA DI MANA??

silapnya di mana diri ini??

kenapa membuang masa ingatkan dia?

kenapa buang air mata sedihkan lelaki yang entah ingat kita atau tidak??

kenapa bazir masa tidur karana pikirkan dia?

silapnya di mana?

silapnya diri ila sendiri..

tidak cuba memahami keadaan diri sendiri..

memaksa diri untuk terus bersama dia walau dalam bayangan..

tak!!

bukan ila memaksa diri..

tapi hati yang bernama CINTA ini yang memaksa ila jadi tidak keruan begini!!

kenapa perlu wahai hati??

p/s:ina..ila nk ucap thankz kat ina sbb care sal ila..ina sum1 yag ila xkan lupa sepnjang idop ila..ila syg na..insyaAllah na,,ila akn usha tok lupakn dia..but not now!!mayb later sbb skang dia masih isi tempat yang adr lam hati ila..tp ila jnj dgan ina,,lau suatu hari nanti ame xblik jgak dkat ila..ila rela hati tggalkan dia..rela na.ila akn relakn pmergian dia even hati ini merintih sbb....  sbb bley dikatakn stiap prjlnan ila dibayangi cinta dia..amik masa mencri cnta bru..hu3...ina,thanz so much..ila syg ina dunia akhrat!!

DO U CARE BOUT ME??

Sayang..semalam by mimp sayang..by nampak sayang sdey sgat dalam mimp tu..is there anythink wrong wid u,sayang??by nampak sayang mcm tu,,by ngis..by nk g dekat dgan sayang..tapi lame2 sayang hilang..by trus sedar lpas mimpi tu..by tersedar pkul 4 a.m.,,by sdar dalm keadaan by ngis n lpas pada 2 by xleh tdow da..by asyik teringatkan ame..xpernah sekali dalam hari2 yang by lalui,by lupa sayang..sayang selalu ader lam hati by..sayang..agak2 kn sayang peduli x hal by??by g skola ke x..by mkan kew x agy..b buat kejew skola kew x..by tdow ckup kew x..by bley follow x form 4 pnya sbject skang..sayang amik taw?ke skang da ader gf bru??by tkot lau by trpaksa telan hakikat sayang da ader orang lain...

sayang,,sayang...by nak ctew sket sal by sepnjg syg tggal by mse 29/8/08 ari 2..byak bnd jd kat by taw sayng..by xdapt ctew sumer sebab by ingat2 lupa..by ctew mane by ingat jew taw..sayang ingat x dulu sayang kate sayang lau kita clash by jgn crik org lain..sbb sayng nk crik by blik..lpas 3,4 bulan by ditinggalkan oleh sayang tnpa sepath kata,ader owg melamar by jd mak we dia..by tolak sbb by tggu sayang..pastu kn syang,,ader sekali tu kan,,papa marah by...by ngis byak sgat mse 2..sbb da xder suara syg yang pjok by,by lari g umah sayang..tp bukan depn2 pintu umah syg la..dkat dgan lorong nk msuk umah syg 2..by ngis c2...tetbew keta syg lalu msuk lrong tu..tp by xpggil syg sbb by tgok driver dia 2 mama syg..by trus ngis smpai ptg tu by nampak syg..by nampak syg kwa nek keta..mse syg kwa lrong 2 syang xnmpak by kn..tp by nampak syg..puas da tgok syg..by jaln blik even kaki by sakit sbb rumah by ngn rumah syg jauh gak kn..tp xpew..by dapt tgok muka syg by da ckup eppy..even by tgok lam diam..

lagi apa ye?haaa..ame sayang..ader mase hari prtama by nk msuk form 3 kn...papa by anta b skola guna jalan yang lalu dpan umah ame..by nampak keta ame kat garaj..pastu pagi2 buta cm tu by ngis ats keta sebb itu pagi pertama by g skola tnpa suara ame..kn mase by form 2..ame msti col by ucap gud mrning n suwo by g skola blaja rajin2..msti dgar suara ame..even ame xder cdit...ame sggup pkul 5 pagi pown ame akn g seven E untuk beli tp4..sbb ame kna col by sblom by g skola..tp msok form 3 by g skola tnpa dgar suara ame..nmpak umah ame by ngis...papa tnya by "adik nape ngis?"..by ckap "by rndu sum1"...papa diam jew dgar by ckap cm 2..tp by taw papa pham ape by cube smpaikan...pastu ame taw..sepnjang by d f3,,by blaja rajin2...by slalu ingat pesan ame...sampai 24/12/09 ai tu by capai 9a...by ngis kuat sgat..sebab by eppy by nk celebrate dgan ame..sayang taw x,,mse by duk ats motor blik amik result dgan abg by 2 kn,,by ckap kat angah..

by:ngah,benti kat umah ame taw..adik nk gtaw ame adik dapat 9a..nty mesti ame bg by adiah..

TETIBEW MOTOR D BREK!!ANGAH TGOK BY XBERKELIP!!

angah:apew adik ckap nie??

by:nape angah ckap cm 2?

angah:adik lupa kew adik da clash ngn dia..dik..blaja trma knyataan adik..benti la ingat dia...he's not 4 u...he's not yours anymore...adik jgan buat cm nie lagi erk..abg ngah sdey lau adik gnie..lupakan dia...

by:xper ar lau cm 2...

(mase tu bru sdar by da khlngan sayang...tears rolling down)

pastu by nak gtaw syang kn...by dmam skang..mayb sbb cuaca kowt skjap pnas skjap hujan..by slalu ingat syang..by nk sayang datng suap by ubat...sbb by paling xska mkan ubat btuk n antibiotik..slalunya syg yang akn datang cuap by kn...sayang,,cpat la dtg suap by...hek3...agak2 kn,,sayang dgar x ape by bebel lam nie..msti angin rndu da poskan tulisan blog nie kat ame kn..ame bcew taw...pastu cpat nlik crik by taw..by xjemu lagi tggu ame...agak2 blew ek sayang?nty lau ame blik kat by kn...by jga ame smpai blew2 taw...by buang sumer skap bruk by kat ame dulu taw...a new "baby" for,honey!!sayang jaga diri baik2 taw..lau syg kwa mlam naik motor wktu hujan,bwak plahan2 taw,,,by tkot xcdent cm ai 2...ingat 2 pesan by...

SALAM SAYANG,,

       baby

aku fikirkan mendung berterusan..

tapi kini mentari muncul lagi

ku rasa kembali kehangatan nya

maafkan aku meninggalkan mu

itu ku lakukn kerana cintaku padamu

ku tak sangggup melihat kau tersiksa

tuhan saja yang tahu perasaanku

berperang dengan suasana

hingga kan ku terpaksa meninggalkanmu kerana tak sanggup melihat kau derita

menyesalnya aku kerana menyangka nasib tak menyebelahi cinta dan hidup kita

syukur tuhan masih sayang pada kita

masih sayang masih pada kita

p/s:sayang,,nie lagu yang by mimpi sayang nyanyi kat by bila by mimpi sayang semalam!!

SAMPAI BILA??

sampai blew by mesti tunggu ame?

rasenya da lame kn syg?

blew yea kita akn brsama??

blew?

blew?

ame xkcian kt by kew tggu ame lame2 cm nie?

nty lau by dmam kew...bt sakit kew...by ngis kew...

sape nk tolng pujok by??

mesti la ame kn...

sooo...

cpat la blik kt by...by tgu taw ame kt cni..

kat dalam hati by...

ame jaga diri elok2 taw..

by selalu sayg ame..

setiap saat taw syg....

I LOVE YOU SAYANG!!

~ i am CRYING ~

YANG INI UNTUK KEKASIH TERCINTA,,AME!!

actually bukan kekasih la..

my ex..tp lam hati dia kekasih say dan jgan cube untuk rmpas dia dari hati saya k!!

Anak ikan berlima - lima,

Mati ditimpa punggur berdaun,

Kasih tuan saya terima,

Sebagai hutang seribu tahun..

MEANING,,

seseorang yang mengasihi orag lain...

apabila kasihnya diterima,,

 hubungan tersebut akan berterusan dalam jangka masa yang panjang!!

SPECIALLY FOR SHAZMEER!!

PESANAN DARI PKP!!

Hurm..today went to skola..first period actually mase pjk...tp pkp pggil nk jumpa all ex form 3 twon lpas la kn..hu3...da agak da mesti kna dgar amanat dia la nie..xder bnda lain la kn..tp ila suka dgar..sbb buat ila spirit nk blaja..hehhehee..yelew..manew dia xnasihat..lau yang dapat straight a mse 2008 ialah 94...then 2009,,mse batch ila...trun mendadak...sapew xterkilan kn..i myself terkilan taw even diri ila dapt straight a..huhuhuu..

k...here adalah amanat2 beliau yang ila dgar td...
1- kenal diri sendiri
2- baiki kelemahan diri
3- tanam azam nak belaja sungguh2
4- buat persediaan lebih awal kerana sudah terbukti subject ting 4 itu amat susah!!
5- pergerakan mesti pantas(terutama waktu nak pergi lab)
6- bcew dulu sub topic2 yang akan diajar oleh cikgu pada esok hari
7- jangan sesekali tggal kelas(even kamu pelajar yang berjawatan tinggi di skola,jgan tggal kels kerana owang yang berjawatan tggi seperti prefects2 yang ketagih meeting waktu cikgu mengajar adalah owg yang rugi..n lau pgang jwatan tgg,,tp result kecundang,,kamu adalh owg yang B*D*H!! sowi2,,bukan ila gtaw..pkp yang ckap k)
8- jangan tidur..(nie masalah kritikal la lau kat skola ila)
9- PALING PENTING...JANGAN PANDAI2 NK COUPLE!!kerana apew?kerana pkp ckap..awak lau pelajar skola kpel.awak bukan la buah aty pengarang jantung dia..awak adlah alat untuk dia permainkan dan untuk kepuasan dia..nty dia da bosan dgan awk..dia akn tggal awk k..SOOO AWK YANG PEREMPUAN2 NIE,,,INGAT ORG LAKI HNYA TGGU KSEMPATAN,PELUANG DAN RUANG YANG AWAK AKN BUKA UNTK MEREKA!!hek3...2 pown ayat pkp k..

byak kan amanat pkp!! biaser ar...sume guru nk ank didiknya brjaya..kui3...tq la pkp k...


k...then start ai nie ngn fizik..ckgu nie amat garang lorh..kecut perut ila nk blaja..da la suka bnding kitaowg ngn claz len..menyampah doe...sekaligus buat mud ila n my desk mate,wina jd mlas blaja fzik..tp smngat 2 masih ader ar..then syariah lak..syariah cm biase..cool..even diri ini taw dats ustzh mcm dun like me kowt..kah3...pas2 eng period.ckgu g klnk..tara dtg..so sumer bkak channel msg2..yang nie astro prima,,yang nie tv 3,,yang nie tv 2..i mean sumer owg busy talking tah apa2 trmasuk diri ini..huk3..pastu rehat..g mkan...i ate roti only...continue lak ngn add math...HELL!! again...xdapt ketchup..then i cried..tp bkan dpan ckgu lorh..ila g ngis dgan desk mate ila..pas2 kitaowg decide blik lambt..kul 4.30..echah n wina are willing 2 teach me add math..dapt tngkap la sket2 kn...thank god..got to do lots of latihan kn..hek4...skang da dapt ketchup la kn..nty period len?penim3...add math amat susah doe!!pastu last kali bio...frst tyme jmpa ckgu bio..bru knal la who's our bio teacher kn...name ape ek dia?lupa...tp sgat2 glew bsykur...she's nice n sgat cntik,,putih melepak...kah3...i like the teacher sbb dia ajar ila pham..bukn cm fzik..tara pham apa pown..hek3..xder la xpham sumer..tp byak xpham dri pham!!got dats my physic teacher?adoi ar ckgu2...stres amat blaja ngn ckgu nie..hek3...ampunkan dosa ila umpat ckgu plak..pnat la...

itu sal my life for tday...notink intrsting pown..kah3..saje nk brcrita..hu4...have a nice daiz k!!

IS HE DOING THE SAME THING TO ME NOW??

The passengers watched sympathecially as the young woman with the white stick made her way carefully up the steps of the bus..She paid the driver and used her hands to feel for a seat..Then,,she sat down with the stick resting against her leg..

It had been a year since Misha, thirty - four, became blind. Becauce of medical problem,she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness. Misha, who was once an independent woman, fely condemned to be a burden on everyone around her.All she had to cling was to her husband, Malik, an army officer who loved her dearly.

When Misha first lost her sight, she sank into despair, but Malik was determined to help her become independent again. After a few months, she was finaly return to her job. She used to take the bus, but she was too frightened to get around city by herself..So,how would she get there? Malik volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city.

At first, this comforted Misha anf fulfilled Malik's need to protect his wife, who had loct confidence in doing even the simplest task. Soon, however, this transport arrangement was becoming too tiring and for him. He realised that she would have to start taking the bus again, but just the thought of mentioning this to her upset him. She was still fragile, so angry. How would she react?

Just as malik expected, Misha was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again. Her heart was full of anger. "How can you do this to me? I am blind!" she responded bitterly. " How am I supposed to know where I'm going? I feel as if you are abonding me.Dont you love me anymore?"

Malik's heart broke when he hears those words, but he knew what to do. He promised her that, each morning and evening, he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took for her to get used of it. And that was exactly what happened. For the whole two weeks, Malik, in full of military uniform, accompanied Misha to and from work each day. He taught her how to rely on other senses especially on heraing  and jow to adapt to her new situation. 

Malik helped her make friends with the bus driver, who would watch out for her. They even saved a seat for her. Malik made her laugh, even on those bad days, whan she tripped as she left the bus or dropped her briefcase. Each morning, they made the journey together and Malik waould take a taxi back to his office. Although this routine was more expensive and tiring than the precious one, he knew it was just a matter of time before she would be able to ride the bus on her own. He believed in her. in the Misha that he used to know, who was not afraid of ang challenges and who would never ever quit.

Indeed, she son became confident enough to start travelling on her own. One day, as she was to get off the bus, the driver said, " Maam,,I really envy you. It must so good to be taken care of and protected like you are."

Misha had no idea what the driver was talking about , and she asked, " What do you mean?"

The driver answered, " You know, every morning, a gentleman in a military uniform stands on the other side of the road watching you as you leave the bus. He makes sure you crass the road safely and he watches you until you enter the office building. Then he blows you a kiss, and walks away. You are a fortunate woman."

Tears of happiness flowed down her cheecks. Although she could not see her husband, she had always felt his presence. Misha was lucky, so lucky, for she he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she did not need to see to belive, a gift of love can bring light where there has been darknness!!!

______________________________________

Ame,,,by rindu ame...by xmtak la by buta cm lam ctew nie..but adakah ame sedang memerhati by tnpa by sedari?atau itu hnya hrapn palsu by?

apakah itu cuma...

cuma impianku saja...

sedangkan hakikatnya engkau dan aku berbeza...

andainya kau terima..

impian menjadi nyata...

itulah dikatakan jodonhya kita di tangan tuhan!!

BANYAKNYA SAKIT!!

Mengapa terjadi perpisahan???

dikala aku memerlukan..

INA CAYARM!!

ok na...nakal kan blog nie da jd chat room..hek3...naaaa...its sokay lorh..tp nakal..hak3...

na,,,lau DPM da kate dia xder gf bru,,ok lorh...btol la 2..xpelu gadh2 k..nty ina ngis..u'll sad,,i'll also sad..hak3...ape doe...hek3...na go on wid him la k..ila cyer dia jujr kat na tu k..n no doubt la kn,,ina msti trust on him jgak kn...xragu2 k dear..hek3...

bley jew nk ctew sal DPM..i'm glad 2 share anything wid u...n my pwems said i'm a gud listener..hek3...(poyo nie)hak3...share wid me n i'm glad 2 hear you...kui3...u laugh,,i laugh..u cry..n i'm also cry...up or down,,i'm wid u here..kah3....apew yang penting,,KERJASAMA!!

hak3...

k ar na...post kali nie xleh pnjg2..coz nie on9 tyme mama xder..tkot dia blik hbis ar kena bebl..& d second reason sbb post nie da jd bilk chat..kwakwakwakwakwa...hu3...

p/s: i write in blue coz ur favourite kaler is blue kn..hek3...

      take care my dear darl...

      selamt jd bndhri...

      may 2010 will bring u a thousand luck & also LOVE!!

      ILYSM!!

JADI PELAJAR TING 4!!

ok..

my first day g skola in 2010..

n i'm in form 4..

argh!!

rase cm mlas sgat sbb smlm xckup tdow..

ye ar...

tdow kul 2.30 am..

bgun blik kul 4.30 am..

lpas pada 2 da xleh tdow da..

mata ila berkelip2..

makhluk Allah yang name kelip2 tu pown kalah dgan mata ila yang berkelip semalm sowg2 tu..

hu4..

ok...

smpai dpan gate tu...

trus ngn muka feelingless tu ila menuju ke klas nie..

hak3..

then tetbew..

bpak trkejut ila..

ader adeck form 1 nie,,

"kak,kak,tndas manew?'

i was like what??

blurr glew la kn..

then ader my pwems sowg nk g kntin..

n nk menuju kek kantin 2 melalui tandas kn..

so ila trus otomatik..

"wina,mg nk g kantin kn..bwak adik nie g jgak"

hahhahhahahahha

tetbew telah menjadi sowg senior yang baik la kn..

hak3..

poyo tol ila nie kn..

hek4...

then ila g msuk clas 4US..

hak3...

ok2!!

assembly xder sbb ari ujan kn..

nie brkat doa aleez n pije brdoa supaya ari ujan so xder asssembly..kowang nie kn..

hak3...

jd scra x lnsg..blew assembly xder,,

my class teacher yang msuk..

merangkap ckgu fizik ar kn...

hahhahahahahaha..

one confession..

wats ur name ha ckgu?

i forgot already..

ampun2 ckgu...

kahkahkahkahkahkahkahakah...

then ckgu english lak msuk..

nie ila suka..

sbb mse form 3 dia yang ajar..now pown dia jgak..

seng sket nk main angin ngn dia nie..

hehehheheheeee..

then ckgu math moden lak msok...

blaja sket2..

ila fokus penuh nie sbb tkot xpham..

bajet la ko nie ila wei..

poyo xhbis2...

then ckgu sejrah.then ckgu bm..

tired tol la ckgu bm  nie,...

frst day da bg kijew skola kn...

nk enjoy lu frst day nie...

hakhakhakahak...

k..

disz bout my frst day skla..

esk tkot sgat sbb i'm goin 2 start my day tomorrow by learning chemiistry...

waaaaaaaaaaaaa...

bank!!

glew doe...

hak3...

wish me luck la untk first week ni k..

SALAM SATU MALAYSIA!!

HELP ME!!

Dear all frens...

ila nk tkar layout...

cm ner nie....

td da tkar..xjadi...

tolom la ajarkn...

plis3...

nk tkat layout..

lalalalallalalallalllalaallalaa

FIRDAUS

Ihave a frenz named firdaus,,

i usually col him fir..

he's a smoker..

but now..

at disz moment,,

here,,

at last!!

he's going to stop smoking..

ha4...

thank God...

hu3....

good for him..

kan3...

RASA HATI

Pertemuan ini...

Menyingkap rasa hati dan perasaan...

Pandangan mu...

Kata kata mu.....

Senyum mu...

Sukar untuk ku lafazkan...

Mungkin inilah yang dikatakn cinta!!

INA..TAKE IT EASY DEAR!!

ok ina...askom pembuka bicara k..huuhuhuu..i have read ur note..it touch me damn2 hot!!kui3.. but trust me..u r  strong enuf to face it darl,,ok? but here,frankly from me,,ila confused ar kn..ina ckap ina still go on wid him..tp lam note ti jgak ina ckap dia ader gf bru? wats goim on actually dear? am u also in a confused na?

pasal ina nk g jmpa gf bru dia..ok go on...tp how?bcoz tiap kali nk buat cm 2..u'll olwaiz cry...be tough na...be strong...go n meet dats gurl..talk 2 her..discuss wid her..but i am sure cinta ina trhdap DPM xder tndingannya..even dats gurl also xleh lwan..coz i'm myself can see ur love towrds him,na...cm nie ar na...ila bukan nk suwo ina jd jhat dgan menjadikn DPM curang trhdap gf bru dia 2..coz ina sndrik rase ape itu sakit..ape itu perit..ape itu terluka..ape itu menangis..ape itu serik...apew itu dikhianati..ape itu setia..n u know its hurt when sum2 stab our back!! n of coz blew kita rase, we r not going 2 let org lain pown rase cm 2 coz kita thu ape itu SAKIT!! but na...go n fight for your love...go n fight for ur DPM!! xsalh na..bukn jyah pown..g ar na...g crik dats gurl...ila bukan cakp ape..tp lau ina iklas nk lpaskn DPM,,ina xkn ngis..ina akn slowly lpas dia..blew ina ngis,,it shows me u stil love him..am i ryte?? proof me if i'm wrong..na,ila taw ina ader pwasaan xnk gf bru DPM 2 terluka like u..but na jgan korbankn perasaan sndrik untk owg lain..i know byak owg kate sy bhgia blew dia bhgia..but deep inside there,it hurts soooo really2 damn2 much na...believe me.dear...

cm nie ar...u go n find ur love..go n fight for ur love,,,then at d war,,lau kalah...then its ok...if u lose,at least u have tried ur best...after d war,,lau DPM mash memilih dats gurl,,,ok..fine! but at d same tyme,,u must let him go...from ur life n ur heart..i know lau heart 2 mayb lil bit difficult..but u try ur best k dear...u try ur best..

na..here,,my writing adalh ila pnya opinion..lau ina rase ini salh,,then dun do it k..kdg2,,ape org kate xsame dgan ape aty kita brbisik..so..think it carefully...take ur tyme..n remember disz...anytink comes dats trouble you,,u let me know ok syg!! mane ila bley bantu,,i'll surely help u k...bley kn..bukn nk busy body,,but a fren wanna help her fren..ok??

k ar na....do take care k...i know...life is not as easy as ABC,,but it is not as difficult as XYZ..
i'll olwais wid u darl!!

BAY!!

bay..me here..hak3..nk ckap apew erk?adui ar...penim lar gni gak...bay,mg taw dop lpas kita hbis tsyen smlm kn..just the 2 of us sbb others da blik..then we talked..

ila: bay,lambtnya..lmbtnya...bay..lmbtnya!!

bay: lmbat gapow?

ila: lambtnya ame nk mari mula kat ku..lame da ak tggu dia...lau dia mari lam bulan satu twon bru nie,,bley gak ak nk celebrate 9a ak nie ngn dia...tp lau dia mari lam bule 2 kow 3 g2,,xdop la ak nk smbut 9a ngn dia..tp eppy glow2 tu ado ar;;

ila: ak serow da mg nk kcep sal ame..hurm..gnie ar.trus terg ak kato kow mg desh,,ak dapt rasow ame akn blik mula kow mg...

ila: bkpow mg serow g2?

bay: sbb male ak mimpi kow dia...dia mari dkat jh kow mg wei..

ila: ak pown mimpi lau g2 gak..

bay: dop thul...ak bley rase dia akn kmbali kow mg...(then muka mase 2 da muka 1 cen..nk ngis da 2)

bay: tgok 2..nk ngis da 2...

ila: i just smiled)

then parnts bay da smpai..left me alone..kah3...parnts ila nie lupa amik ila kowt..naaa,,,no arh..they just a lil bit late ok!!

then dats nyte,,i olwais smiled n 4 d first tyme,,,ila tdow semlm tnpa air mata...itu adalh malm prtama ila tdow tnpa air mata selpas ari ame tggl ila..caaaaayaaaaaaa la...nape xngis?sbb ila tdow dgan arapn yang tggi cecah lgit dats ami will be mine again!!huhuhuu..tp tara taw la jd ke x harapn tggi langit 2...