TOMORROW IS MY BIG DAY!!

Ya Allah..esok da nak pergi amik result..

takot sangat rase...berdebar2..

rase xtenang...

mampukah ila capai apew yang mama kehendaki?

mampukah ila capai 9a?

mampukah ila?

mampukah?

soaln yang kerap bertandang di benak ila sekarang...

ila rase xtenang

ila rase xsehat..pagi2 tadi lagi ila da sakt perut...

n then td vomit..

nie kepala rase pening...

dunia rase berputar2...

then...

wat must i do now?

wats actions must i take dengan keadaan cm nie?

semayang?

oh no!!

sowi...

sekarang cuti...

Ya Alah....

berat jew rase ujian nie...

xmampu nak hadapinya!!!

ARGH!!!

esok da nk ambil result..takot,runsing...

semua da bercampur baur...

kepala nie rase berat semacam jew..
ma,pa..
lau kak cik dapat 9a esok..
this is wat i'm going to sat to you
"MA,PA..THNZ FOR GROWING ME UP AND I TURNED TO BE LIKE DISZ..I BE MYSELY..& NOW,HERE,I GIVE U MY 9A"

macam ader batu berat jew hempap kepala nie...

sakit sangat....

GOD!!

plisz..help me..

ila col some of my frens juz now...sumer tdow..HEY!!wats disz?

kowang xamik peduli atau mlas pkir atau xnak amik peduli..

hurm

nk nangis..

blew nk hilang perasaan GEMURUH nie?

blew?

blew?

penat da ila ngis..

nk ngadu kat sapew ye?

pok su?

xder cdit nk col

family??

no!!

sowi guys....

bukan nk belakangkan kowang sumer

but

ila taw kowang sumer simpan harapan yang tggi tok ila..

mayb setinggi langit..sbb 2 ila xmengadu ngn kowang...

jgan terasa k..

kepala rase cam nak muntahkan sumer lahar2 yang ader lam nie..

macam gunung berapi...

nk meletop da!!

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SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO:

KAK LONG

long..thanz for all ur support..it was damn2 appreciated by me..n also trimas for all ur prayers k..long,thnz also for lending me ur shoulders for me to cry..

i love you..

ANGAH

ngah...thnz coz sudi dgar luahan aty adik td...n trimas jgak of all ur advices...i know u r not gud in ur studies but wateva it is,ur still my brother..till death..

POK SU

Su..trima kasih sebab da byak bagi nasihat kat kak cik..pok su adalh sum1 where i can share my feelings,my worries,my stories n every single tinks...su,i know u love me n here..i want u to know dats i love u too..

MOK SU NOR

mok su nor...i know u r not here..u r in mecca to perform ur haj..kak cik mintak2,doa mok su nor berkenaan result kak cik akan dimakbulkan..InsyaAllah..take care ye,nor..

BAY

bay..trimas a lot sebab selalu ader d cc ak waktu aku ngis n rase xtenang pkir result...ko kawan ak dunia akhrat..ak harap impian kita nak sambung belajar d uni of aberdeen akan tercapai..i love u bay..

AND LASTLY TO

MAMA & PAPA

ma..pa...kak cik here...i wrote sumtink for u guys here...ma n pa...i know..mama n papa ader harapan yang tinggi petala ke 8 terhadap kak cik..i realised dats k...but seriously..deeply in my heart..i really2 damn2 wants to give u my 9a..ma,pa...kak cik taw besar mane pengharapan papa n mama terhadap kak cik...i want 2 let you know datz i have done my best to get 9a..n not only i have satdy hard..kak cik juga da semayang hajat n pray to HIM...i hope u get it mum,dad...ma,pa...i just want to say sorry for everi single things i did..i know..lau kak cik xdapat achieve my 9a..i know.its my own fault..mayb kak cik xcukup belajar..mayb ader xdapat berkat manew2..mayb ader ar tu sangkut manew2..but mum & dad,kak chik percaya,,mama dan papa bawak kak chik ke dunia nie bukan untuk kecewakan mama n papa kan..so,here..I JUST WANT TO SAY A LOT OF SOORY if i couldnt get my 9a..trully...seriously..i didnt mean to hurt both of u..n i didnt mean to let both of u to be down..i'm so sori papa..mama...but nie lau kak chik xdapt 9a la kan..mama..papa...lau ditakdirkan kak chik xdapat 9a lam PMR nie..i PROMISE U..i'll give u when i'm going to face my SPM..i'LL pay mama n papa back..i know..u'll get upset lau kak chik xdapat ape yang mama n papa impikan...but i'm sooooooo sorry....kak chik sndiri akan kecewa..i hope both of u will understand..
mum.dad...iye2,,i know.i shud tell u guys bnd bie secara berdepan..but i dun tink so...xbiase n i'm shy..dats is just not me!!i guess  u know my attitude kan..i'm ur daughter!!
hurm...i know both of u xkan dapt bcew wats i wrote here...but at least i'm writing sumtink for you!!

BUT HERE!!
STILL ILA MASIH ADER
SEDIKIT PENGHARAPAN!!
I WISH I CAN ACHIEVE IT!!
I WISH ITS BECOME REALITY!!
I WISH I CAN HAVE MY 9A!!